The Six-Year-Old Living Inside the Fifty-Year-Old
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Written by Taiye Aluko, Relationship Coach
Taiye Aluko helps individuals and couples find purpose in life and happiness in marriage. An excellent encourager, she is passionate about seeing people unlock their personal power and attain the best version of themselves.
A few years ago, I began noticing something interesting. Many of the people I conversed with were accomplished adults. They were leading organisations, building careers, raising families, and carrying significant responsibilities. From the outside, they appeared confident, capable, and successful. Yet beneath the achievements, there was often something else at work. A comment from a spouse could trigger emotions that seemed far larger than the moment itself. Constructive feedback at work could feel deeply personal. A delayed phone call could create anxiety that had little to do with the actual situation.
The more I listened, the more I realised that many of us are not simply responding to what is happening today. We are also responding to stories, conclusions, and emotional experiences that were formed years ago, sometimes decades ago. In many ways, a six-year-old lives inside the fifty-year-old. Until we understand that, six-year-old parts of our lives will continue to be shaped by someone we thought we left behind.
The stories we learn before we have the words to explain them
Long before we develop the ability to think critically about our experiences, we begin drawing conclusions about ourselves and the world around us. Children are constantly trying to make sense of what is happening around them. When they experience acceptance, they draw conclusions. When they experience rejection, they draw conclusions. When they experience criticism, conflict, neglect, affirmation, instability, or encouragement, they draw conclusions. The problem is that children often interpret experiences through a very limited lens. A child may conclude that a parent’s emotional distance means they are unlovable. A child who is constantly compared to others may conclude they are never quite good enough. A child who grows up in a home where conflict feels threatening may learn that keeping the peace is more important than expressing their needs.
These conclusions rarely remain in childhood. They travel with us. They become part of how we see ourselves, part of how we relate to others, and part of how we navigate opportunities, challenges, relationships, and leadership. Years later, many adults are still living from beliefs they never consciously chose, beliefs that were formed by a younger version of themselves trying to make sense of experiences they did not fully understand.
When the past joins the conversation
Have you ever reacted to something and later wondered why it affected you so deeply? The issue itself was relatively minor. The disagreement was not unusual. The feedback was not particularly harsh. Yet something inside you seemed to awaken. Most of us have experienced moments like that, moments when the intensity of our reaction tells us there is more happening beneath the surface than the present situation alone. What we are experiencing in those moments is often the collision between a current event and an old story. The present triggers something unresolved from the past. A spouse forgets something important, and suddenly it feels like abandonment. A manager asks a challenging question, and it feels like criticism. A friend disappoints us, and it feels like rejection.
The adult understands the situation intellectually, but emotionally, an older wound may have already taken over. This is one reason self-awareness is such an important aspect of emotional intelligence. Without it, we spend our lives reacting without understanding why. With it, we begin to recognise patterns, we become curious about our triggers, and we start asking better questions, "Why did this affect me so strongly? What story am I telling myself? What belief is being activated? Where have I felt this before?" Growth often begins with curiosity, not curiosity about other people, but curiosity about ourselves.
How childhood shows up in adult relationships
I have often found that relationships are where our hidden stories become most visible. Many of the struggles we experience in adult relationships are not simply about communication, compatibility, or conflict. They are connected to deeper beliefs about love, trust, safety, acceptance, and worth. Someone who fears abandonment may become anxious when their partner needs space. Someone who learned that vulnerability was dangerous may struggle to open up emotionally. Someone who grew up believing that their needs were unimportant may find it difficult to set boundaries. Someone who learned that approval must be earned may spend years trying to please everyone around them. What appears to be a relationship problem is often a story problem, a belief problem, or an awareness problem.
This does not mean we should blame our childhood for every difficulty we experience as adults. Personal responsibility still matters. Growth still requires intentional effort. But understanding where our patterns come from often gives us the insight needed to change them. You cannot change what you do not understand, and many people spend years fighting behaviours without ever exploring the beliefs underneath them.
The inner child does not stay at home
We often think of childhood wounds as affecting only our personal lives. In reality, they frequently show up in our professional lives as well. The leader who struggles to delegate may be carrying a deep fear of disappointment. The executive who becomes defensive when challenged may be protecting an old insecurity. The high performer who cannot celebrate success may still be chasing validation. The manager who micromanages everything may be driven more by anxiety than excellence. Titles do not automatically heal emotional wounds. Success does not automatically produce self-awareness. In some cases, achievement can even hide unresolved issues. People may appear highly successful while quietly battling fears that date back many years.
This is why emotional intelligence is not simply about understanding emotions. It is about understanding ourselves. Every leader brings their whole story into the room, their strengths, their fears, their beliefs, their experiences, their unresolved issues, whether they realise it or not.
The prison we cannot see
Some of the most powerful prisons are invisible. They are built from assumptions we stopped questioning years ago, I am not enough. People will always leave. I cannot trust anyone. My value depends on my performance. I have to make everyone happy. Failure is unacceptable. These beliefs quietly shape decisions, relationships, careers, and leadership styles. The longer we carry them, the more normal they feel. Eventually, we stop recognising them as beliefs and begin treating them as facts. That is where many people become stuck, not because they lack potential, not because they lack opportunity, but because they are living from conclusions that were never examined.
The journey back to yourself
One of the greatest gifts we can give ourselves is the courage to understand our own story. Not to live in the past, not to assign blame, not to remain trapped in old wounds, but to understand what has shaped us, to recognise what still influences us, and to identify the beliefs that no longer serve us. Awareness creates choice, and choice creates freedom. The goal is not to erase the past. The goal is not to pretend painful experiences never happened. The goal is to ensure they no longer control the present.
Over the years, I have become increasingly convinced that personal growth is less about becoming someone new and more about removing the barriers that prevent us from becoming who we truly are. Sometimes those barriers are fear, sometimes they are limiting beliefs, and sometimes they are stories we have carried for so long that we no longer realise they are there. The six-year-old within us deserves compassion. That younger version of ourselves was doing the best they could with what they knew at the time. But there comes a point when the child who helped us survive cannot continue to lead our lives. The healthy adult must take the wheel.
Perhaps that is one of the most important journeys any of us will ever undertake, not becoming someone different, but becoming free.
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Taiye Aluko, Relationship Coach
Taiye Aluko is your guide to personal and professional transformation. With over two decades of counselling experience, she understands that our personal and professional lives are deeply intertwined. Taiye helps individuals navigate these interconnected spheres, empowering them to achieve clarity, fulfilment, and lasting success.
