The Discomfort of Being You and a Return to Divine Love Through Creativity
Written by Humna HS, Spiritual Art Healer
With over 35 years of experience, Humna is an award-winning artist and founder of Art as Ibadat. She uses sacred geometry and cultural art to uplift daily life, ease anxiety, and connect individuals of all ages and cultures to their creativity and the Divine through mindful healing practices.
Today, I sat with this quiet, persistent discomfort, the kind that creeps in when you try to be yourself in a world that doesn’t quite know how to hold you. I brought this discomfort into meditation, asking softly, “What is this really about?” What came through was a clarity that grounded me deeply, reminding me how held, how loved, and how truly seen I am, not by people, but by the One who created me.
Without planning to, I found myself moved to share this download with you through this article.
So many hearts have been broken, questioned, and dimmed simply for the light they carry. And out of confusion, not knowing what’s real or what’s true, we become numb. We grow silent. We learn to tolerate pain, wear masks, and fit into spaces that were never built for us.
It’s not easy to exist in environments where you feel unseen, unheard, and misunderstood, constantly judged. The heart begins to shatter in places it no longer has the strength to rebuild. But I want to remind you, as I was reminded: none of this is without purpose.
Everything you’ve endured, the heartbreak, the silence, the shapeshifting to survive, was written long before you lived it. And nothing Allah does is without reason.
We absorb the noise of the world like sponges: the expectations, the “rights” and “wrongs,” the way to speak, dress, and behave. We follow in order to fit in, because standing out is isolating, even terrifying.
But here’s the truth:
Your need to be seen is the light in you that longs to shine.
Your desire to be heard is the music inside you that needs expression.
Your yearning to be valued is the heart in you that craves love.
And all of this, your light, your music, your heart, is rooted in the soul God placed within you.
There is a hadith that always moves me deeply. The Prophet ﷺ conveyed that Allah said:
“Neither My heavens nor My earth can contain Me, but the heart of My believing servant can contain Me.”
Let that settle into your being: the heart, your heart, is where the Divine chooses to dwell.
So the light you feel in you? That’s His.
The music you ache to express? That’s His truth speaking through you.
The love you seek? That’s your heart longing to return to the One who already loves you — fully, eternally, without condition.
But now comes the deeper question:
How do we live this truth?
How do we take these beautiful, poetic downloads and embody them in our daily life?
You ask:
Who does my heart truly want to be loved by, and why?
Who am I singing for, expressing for, creating for, and how?
Who am I shining this light upon, and what is my intention?
Often, we discover that we crave love from people, from the creation. But let’s be honest, the love of people is fleeting, conditional, and often painful. Why chase temporary affection when you are already loved by the eternal?
Allah doesn’t love you for your beauty, your success, or how perfectly you perform. He loves you because you are His soul. When that truth becomes your anchor, you stop looking outward for validation. You no longer create to be seen, you create as a remembrance of your devotion to His Love.
When your heart is filled with His love, everything you express becomes devotion.
Your words, your painting, your songs, your movements, they aren’t yours anymore. They are His love, flowing through you. You become a vessel. The art you create, the food you cook, the child you nurture, the friend you comfort, it’s all a reflection of Him in your heart.
This is not performance.
It’s not about audiences.
It’s not about praise.
It’s about connection.
It’s about remembrance.
When you remember who your heart belongs to, you begin to create from a place of truth. Your creativity is not your own; it is the result of being chosen to carry His love into the world through form, color, sound, and movement.
You write, not for applause, but in dhikr.
You sing, not to impress, but to express His love in your heart.
You love, not to be loved back, but because you are already loved.
This is the highest form of creativity: when your voice becomes a symbol of His truth. When your light is no longer yours, but the light of His soul shining through your body. You lose your sense of “me” and become His. Entirely. Sufis call this the state of Fanna.
And in that, the discomfort fades.
Because here’s the thing:
The discomfort of being “you” is only because you think “you” is separate.
But you are not you, you are His.
When your heart is His home, your voice speaks His truth, your art becomes an act of remembering Him, and your being becomes a living tasbih.
The need to perform, to filter yourself, to beg for validation, it all disappears. What’s left is truth, presence, and love, raw, vulnerable, radiant.
So if you’re sitting with discomfort today, let it be a doorway. Let it lead you back to the One who made you. The One whose love created your soul, sustains your heart, and shines through your light.
Let the world say what it wants.
You were never made to belong to it.
You were made to belong to Him.
So speak.
Create.
Shine.
But do it not for the world, do it because He is in your heart, and your heart was made to express His love.
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“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.” – Rumi
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Let’s walk each other home, back to the heart, back to wholeness, back to purpose.
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Humna HS, Spiritual Art Healer
Based in Hitchin and originally from Pakistan, Humna is a spiritual art healer whose work is inspired by Islamic geometry, mandala art, and the 99 attributes of Divine energy. Using gentle inks and acrylics, her art fosters emotional healing, helps break generational trauma, and guides individuals toward inner peace. Through her transformative workshops and creations, she empowers people of all ages to reconnect with themselves and the Divine, using art as a tool for balance, clarity, and self-expression.
