Why Self Love is Shadow Work and the Radical Romance of Reclaiming Yourself
Dr. Katie Simons, PharmD, BCPS, CCHT, is a clinical pharmacist, transpersonal hypnotherapist, psychedelic medicine facilitator, and coach specializing in nervous system regulation, personal transformation, and holistic healing. She is the founder of The Holistic Apothec, a resource for coaching and education on healing through altered states of consciousness.
Self-love has become a bit of a buzzword these days. It's often depicted as taking bubble baths, saying kind things to ourselves in the mirror, and buying ourselves flowers just because. And while those gestures can feel good, they are a far cry from true self-love. Because real self-love? It is not all sweetness and light. It is the kind of love that gets its hands dirty. It is the kind of love that sits with discomfort, listens to the parts of ourselves we have ignored, and gently says, "I see you. You still belong."
Most of us have spent years learning how to perform for approval, contort ourselves to be accepted, and package our emotions in a way that does not rock the boat. That performance can be subtle, such as smiling through a boundary violation, over-explaining our needs, or shaming ourselves for being “too much.” And behind that performance is a pile of our own unloved parts that never got a proper seat at the table. We have exiled our anger, our grief, our power, our shame, tucking these parts away to keep the peace or try to secure love.
The deeper reality is that we cannot fully love and accept ourselves without also loving the parts we have buried within ourselves. The ones we were told were too wild, too needy, too sensitive, too much. Those parts do not disappear just because we stopped looking. They go underground, into the shadow. And if we want to return to wholeness, to actual, grounded self-love, we must do the shadow work to retrieve them and bring them home.
What is shadow work?
We all have parts of ourselves we would rather not see. The critical thought we swallow. The flash of anger we pretend did not happen. The quiet ways we sabotage our own joy. The shame we still carry over a moment long past. The confusing resistance to things we know are good for us. Most of us shove these pieces into a mental basement, lock the door, and hope they do not make too much noise.
These are signs of what is known as the shadow, and they do not just appear out of nowhere. They are formed over a lifetime. The term “shadow” was coined by Swiss psychiatrist Carl Jung, who described it as the unconscious aspects of personality that the conscious ego does not identify with. Often, these include traits, impulses, and emotions that were judged as unacceptable or unsafe during our development. So we repress them. Over time, they move out of our awareness but continue to operate from the background, often in ways that leave us confused or stuck.
Shadow work is the process of turning towards these unconscious, shunned parts of ourselves instead of avoiding them. It is the act of shining a light on what we have hidden away in order to understand it. These parts may cause problems when ignored, but they are not bad. They are simply unintegrated. Shadow work is less about fixing yourself and more about building a relationship with the pieces you have exiled. Learning why they exist. Listening to what they need. And bringing them back into wholeness so you can live more fully from your authentic self.
Inner child as the core of shadow work
At the center of so much of our shadow lives our inner child. The part of us that felt confused, scared, rejected, or abandoned in developmental moments that mattered. When we talk about shame, fear, or guilt in the present, what we are often experiencing is a protective layer wrapped around a much younger part of us who was doing their best to survive by making sure our caregivers were happy with us. The emotions that are triggered from our inner child are signals from a part of us that once had no other option but to hide.
The inner child is not just a metaphor. It is the emotional imprint that lives on as a felt sense in the body. The tightening in your chest when you ask for help. The urge to shrink when you are misunderstood. The ache of loneliness even when you are not alone. These responses often have roots in our real, lived experiences when we had to abandon our authenticity for an attempt at a secure attachment. Shadow work means recognizing that these younger parts are still active within us.
Doing shadow work through the lens of the inner child invites us to become the safe adult we once needed. Instead of bypassing or managing symptoms, we begin to reparent ourselves with compassion and presence. By going back to the small versions of ourselves, we have the opportunity to listen, soothe, and provide the love, acceptance, and safety to little selves. And in doing so, we begin to restore a sense of inner safety that many of us never had the chance to develop.
How do you do shadow work?
Shadow work begins with paying attention, specifically to the parts of us that feel reactive, avoidant, or stuck on repeat. Maybe we find ourselves bristling when someone offers feedback. Or perhaps we go quiet and agreeable in situations where our boundaries are crossed. Maybe there are certain people who light up our inner critic with no clear reason. These are not random responses. They are invitations to notice ourselves. Every overreaction, shutdown, or judgment is a breadcrumb leading back to a part of us that is asking to be seen.
Following these breadcrumbs often means getting curious about our triggers. When something evokes a strong emotional response, instead of pushing it away or justifying it, we can pause and ask: What is this really about? Why does that bother us so much? What does it remind us of?
When did we first feel that way? Triggers are messengers. If we follow the emotional thread, it will usually lead us to a time, place, or memory where something important was misunderstood, dismissed, or left unmet.
This is where the real work begins in forming a relationship. Once we meet the parts of us that learned to protect or perform, we can begin to offer what was missing: presence, acknowledgment, acceptance, and love. Integration happens through reframing the emotional imprints of the past with new imprints we provide ourselves from within. These parts need to know we are listening now. And while this is a deeply personal practice, it can be made more easeful with a witness, someone who can hold space, ask better questions, and reflect back what we might not yet see clearly. With time, this process builds self-trust. We become people who no longer abandon ourselves when discomfort arises. We meet it with curiosity instead, and that is where lasting change begins.
What embodied self-love actually looks like
After doing this kind of work, something profound begins to shift. We start responding to life from presence rather than from a defensive strategy. That familiar urge to withdraw or lash out loses its grip. We catch ourselves before spiraling into stories that no longer serve. We speak our needs with clarity, and we tolerate the discomfort of not being understood without making it mean something personal about our worth.
This is what integration looks like in real time. It's about self-awareness, not perfection. We recognize our patterns as they emerge and are able to choose differently because we trust ourselves to hold the tension of the moment. We are no longer scrambling for validation or managing perception. There is more space inside us, more breath, more capacity. We become resourced rather than reactive, and the armor we've been wearing our entire lives starts to drop away.
The self-confidence that emerges from shadow work allows us to open ourselves up to connection and life on an entirely new level. This is the radical romance of self-love. It is not a one-time act, but a continuous relationship with the parts of us that we have taken responsibility to love and hold. As we return to ourselves over and over again, we begin to understand what it means to be grounded in our own presence. And from that grounded place, love stops being a transaction and becomes something we fully embody.
From self-love to unconditional love
When we commit to this inner reclamation, something even bigger opens up. As we piece ourselves back together, we cultivate a kind of wholeness that naturally extends beyond us. We are no longer relating to others through a lens of unhealed wounds, unspoken expectations, and bids for validation. We are not loving to get something. We are loving because it is who we have become.
Unconditional love is love that demands nothing in return, and it is grounded in our own authenticity. It requires discernment, boundaries, and an honest relationship with ourselves. But when we are no longer waiting on others to prove our worth, love transforms. It becomes less fragile, transactional, and performative. It can breathe.
This kind of love does not need reciprocity to exist, because it's about being rooted enough in ourselves that we can meet others where they are without losing who we are. The more we integrate our shadows, the more we expand our capacity to hold complexity in ourselves and in others. And that, perhaps, is the most radical romance of all.
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Katie Simons, PharmD, BCPS, CCHT, Transpersonal Hypnotherapist and Coach
Dr. Katie Simons, PharmD, BCPS, CCHT, is the founder of The Holistic Apothec, a platform for coaching, education, and healing transformation through altered states of consciousness. A clinical pharmacist turned transpersonal hypnotherapist, psychedelic medicine facilitator, and coach, she blends neuroscience, somatic practices, trance techniques, and spiritual wisdom to guide clients in creating lasting change. Drawing on a decade in academic medicine and years in holistic healing, Katie’s programs focus on nervous system regulation, trauma recovery, overcoming limiting beliefs, and medication tapering. Her work bridges science and mysticism, offering a grounded, accessible path to deep healing, authentic living, and personal freedom.
