Why Love Feels Unsafe Even When You Want It
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Written by Valentina Mazzei, Sound and Energy Alchemist
Valentina is a sound & energy alchemist and founder of Where the Magic Happens. With an array of certifications and mastery in her field, she blends ancient wisdom with modern science to guide to the journey of transformation. Passionate about manifestation, she shares her deep understanding, offering practical tools to harness this powerful practice.
There’s a very specific kind of woman who struggles with love, and she’s usually the one who looks the most put-together. She’s smart. She’s emotionally aware. She knows how to take care of herself. And yet, the thing she wants the most, real love, real closeness, real intimacy, is the one thing her body instinctively tenses around. Not her mind. Her body.
That’s the part no one talks about. Because on paper she’s ready for love. But in her body, something tightens. Something retreats. Something whispers, “Careful.” And if this is you, I want you to hear this clearly: You’re not sabotaging love. You’re protecting yourself in the only way your nervous system knows how. There’s a huge difference.
When wanting love and feeling safe with love don’t match
Here’s the thing most women don’t realize until someone finally says it aloud, you can deeply want love and still not feel safe when love gets close.
Your mind wants connection. Your body remembers the history. And the body will always win.
It remembers the inconsistency. The emotional labor. The times you had to be the strong one. The moments where closeness meant responsibility, not support.
So when someone shows up with real affection, steady, present, intentional affection, the body doesn’t melt. It prepares. It evaluates. It tracks every micro-signal. It stays half a step back.
Not because you don’t want love, but because your system doesn’t trust what will happen if you actually let yourself receive it. Closeness and danger get wired together A lot of women think they have “intimacy issues.” You don’t. You have a nervous system that learned closeness was unpredictable.
Maybe love meant walking on eggshells. Maybe connection came with strings attached. Maybe vulnerability didn’t feel safe. Maybe you carried someone else’s emotions for too long. So today, when someone gets close, your body reacts before you even know what’s happening.
A tightening in the chest.
A subtle pullback.
A need for space.
A sudden rush of overthinking.
A feeling of “something’s off” even when nothing is.
It’s not fear of love. It’s fear of what love used to cost you. That distinction changes everything. When independence becomes armor
Women are praised for being independent. But for so many, independence wasn’t empowerment, it was self-protection. Being the strong one became your identity. You learned to handle everything alone because relying on someone felt like a liability.
Strength that comes from survival makes receiving feel unsafe. You don’t soften because softness used to mean losing control. You don’t lean in because leaning in once meant falling. You don’t open because opening once meant being left to clean up the pieces. So independence becomes the shield, even when it’s keeping the right person out.
Why emotionally intelligent women struggle the most
This part might surprise you. The more self-aware a woman is, the more confusing this becomes. Because you understand your patterns. You can explain your attachment style. You can intellectualize the trigger. You can journal your way around the fear.
But the body doesn’t care about intellectual insight. The body cares about safety.
This is why so many brilliant, self-aware women say things like:
“I know he’s good for me, but something feels off.”
“I want to let him in, but my chest tightens.”
“I don’t know why I keep pulling away.”
“I can’t tell if this is intuition or fear.”
It’s not intuition. And it’s not fear either. It’s protection. It’s your nervous system trying to keep you from reliving old pain, even when the new connection is healthy.
Love isn’t a mindset, it’s a sensation
This is the truth most people miss:
Love doesn’t start in the mind.
It starts in the body.
Not in the story you tell yourself, but in the way your chest expands, your breath softens, your shoulders drop, your system settles. Or doesn’t.
What most women interpret as “I don’t know if he’s right for me” is often, “My body doesn’t know how to feel safe with this amount of presence.” Because presence is intimate. Attention is intimate. Being seen is intimate. And if being seen once meant being judged, abandoned, or misunderstood, your body will panic long before your mind knows why.
So if love feels overwhelming, this is why
Your system isn’t rejecting love. It’s rejecting the vulnerability that love requires. It’s rejecting the possibility of loss. The possibility of repeating the past. The possibility of becoming responsible for someone else’s emotions again. The possibility of being too much or not enough.
No one teaches women how to hold love safely. We’re taught how to earn it, chase it, perform for it, or lose ourselves in it. Not how to receive it. And receiving is the part your body doesn’t trust. Yet.
What this all really means
If you’ve ever wondered why love feels harder for you than for others, if you’ve ever felt like connection overwhelms you, if you’ve ever pulled away from someone you actually liked, if you’ve ever felt your body brace even as your heart opened…
You’re not broken. You’re not difficult. You’re not guarded “on purpose.” You’re not sabotaging the thing you want.
Your body is simply ahead of your mind, doing what it learned to do to keep you safe. And safety is the gateway. Once your system learns that softness doesn’t cost you anything, love stops feeling like a risk…
…and starts feeling like home.
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Valentina Mazzei, Sound and Energy Alchemist
Valentina once struggled a lot with limiting beliefs, self-doubt, and a search for life's meaning. For years, she sought acceptance, dimmed her light, and felt unworthy. This led her to a profound interest in the healing arts, where sound became one of her greatest teachers. As a powerful tool for meditation, deep relaxation, and energetic renewal, sound helps to move stagnant energy while restoring balance and harmony.
After her own transformative healing journey, Valentina made it her mission to inspire and empower others, especially women, by awakening their higher consciousness, helping them rediscover their true selves, and unleashing their full potential and worth through the power of energy and the magic of sound.
