The Inner Pharmacy and How Curiosity and Meditation Brought Me Home
- Brainz Magazine
- Jul 1
- 5 min read
Updated: Jul 2
Sanjana Thanik is a transformative hypnotherapist, a reiki healer, and an expert in RTT and QHHT. As the founder of Mindskapes, she empowers individuals to reconnect with their authentic selves, guiding them to rediscover the parts of their being that have been forgotten or lost.
We often look outside for healing, but the answers lie in the breath, the silence, and the courage to ask: What's really going on within me?
Somewhere along the winding paths of life, we all arrive at a moment when nothing outside us can bring us peace. A moment when the answers we're seeking no longer lie in another book, another person, or another prescription — but in our own inner landscape, waiting to be remembered.
For me, that moment came disguised as pain — sharp, persistent, and life-changing.
A perfect life, until it wasn't
Life looked good from the outside.
I had a career many would dream of, flying across the skies for over three decades, pouring myself into every flight with precision and passion. I was known for being conscientious, dedicated, and nearly perfect. My family, a small, beautiful triangle, was spread across the globe. My husband in Dubai, my son in Los Angeles, and I, somewhere between flights, floating in the middle.
But perfection, I later understood, is often a byproduct of trying to control what you cannot bear to lose.
And slowly, the emptiness began to surface.
Each flight, once exhilarating, started to feel like I was drifting farther from what I truly wanted, to be close to my loved ones. The skies no longer felt like freedom; they felt like distance.
And the body, as it always does, responded to the soul's whispers.
When the body speaks what the soul feels
It began as inflammation in my knee. At first, it seemed manageable, but soon, walking unassisted became difficult. I found myself clutching the walls just to move a few steps. I consulted doctors, visited specialists, and tried every medical intervention I could, but the relief was fleeting. Something deeper was calling out for attention.
In hindsight, I see it clearly now:
My body, my silent ally, was trying to protect me. It created dis-ease to help me avoid what I was unhappy doing. The brain and the body are designed to help you survive on this planet. The brain senses your discomfort, and the body creates dis-ease to help you survive what the brain interprets as danger. All of this was done to bring me home, not just geographically, but emotionally and spiritually.
The turning point: A new kind of journey
At the height of this struggle, I enrolled in Dr. Joe Dispenza's week-long retreat in Dubai. I had already read his books, Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself and Becoming Supernatural, had bought his meditations, and was doing them without fully understanding how they would help me. I didn't know exactly what to expect, only that I needed something beyond conventional healing.
And that week changed everything.
Each day began before sunrise. By 4:00 a.m., we were deep in meditation. The rest of the day unfolded in layers – sessions of wisdom, neuroscience, and energy, exploring how our thoughts create our biology and how our emotions wire our destiny.
For the first time, spirituality was demystified. Science met soul. Curiosity wasn't just welcomed, it was celebrated as the path to transformation.
And I became deeply curious about myself, about what had brought me to this moment, about the pain I had carried, and about what was waiting beneath it.
Curiosity: The word that holds the cure
It was then I noticed something I'd never seen before: the word curiosity holds within it the word CURE.
It wasn't poetic coincidence; it was reality.
Only when I became genuinely curious about what was happening within me, without judgment, without resistance, did I begin to uncover the layers that needed healing. I saw how my need for control had masked deep grief, and how my external perfection was covering internal fragmentation.
Curiosity brought gentleness. It led me to the root.
And at that root, I discovered a deeper medicine.
Meditation: The medicine we carry within
The word meditation carries MEDI, just like medicine.
And in that retreat, I learned that meditation is not a spiritual performance; it's an activation of the inner pharmacy we all carry.
When we meditate, we release oxytocin, serotonin, and dopamine — chemicals that not only make us feel better but also restore homeostasis, the body's innate ability to heal and balance itself.
Meditation is the pause that allows life to reset.
It slows the mind, so the heart can speak.
It silences the noise, so the truth can emerge.
And I listened. Every day. I still do.
It's been over five years now, and I haven't missed a single day of meditation since. I have not heard of arthritis being healed; I have only heard about lifestyle changes and strengthening exercises that help reduce inflammation and pain. But what I did, with curiosity and meditation, is that I healed my knee. As Dr. Joe Dispenza puts it, "To change your reality, you need to create a new personal reality." My curiosity about the root of my issue and meditating each day helped me activate a new personal reality. But more importantly, I came home to myself, to my truth, to my wholeness.
The dance of healing: Curiosity and meditation
Together, curiosity and meditation create a sacred alchemy.
Curiosity asks: What am I truly feeling beneath the surface?
Meditation replies: Come sit with it. You're safe here.
Curiosity opens the door.
Meditation invites you in.
And through that doorway, you don't just find relief — you find return.
An Invitation
If you're hurting, lost, or simply longing for more — pause.
Don't rush to fix it.
Don't numb it away.
Instead, get curious.
Ask yourself, "What is this trying to show me?"
And then, in the stillness that follows, sit. Breathe. Listen.
Because inside your breath… is medicine.
Inside your stillness… is remembrance.
And inside you… Is the cure you've been looking for all along
From my soul to yours,
Sanjana
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Sanjana Thanik, Hypnotherapist, Reiki, RTT & QHHT Practitioner
Sanjana Thanik is a certified hypnotherapist, Reiki healer, and practitioner of Rapid Transformational Therapy (RTT) and Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique (QHHT). With her expertise, she guides individuals through deep healing and self-exploration. As the founder of Mindskapes, Sanjana is passionate about helping people reconnect with their authentic selves, unlocking emotional and spiritual well-being.
