The Hidden Link Between Defensiveness, Emotional Neglect, and Control
- Brainz Magazine
- May 19
- 4 min read
Written by Anna Kuyumcuoglu, Licensed Psychotherapist
Anna Kuyumcuoglu is well-known for her somatic psychotherapies. She is the founder and CEO of Wall Street Therapy, a private practice in the heart of New York's financial district.
Do you ever find yourself explaining, justifying, or defending your actions, desperately hoping the other person will finally understand where you’re coming from?
Maybe it sounds like this:
“But I didn’t mean it like that”
“If you would just listen for a second”
“I’m not trying to upset you!”
And yet, the more you explain, the more the tension grows. Instead of understanding, you get resistance. Or worse, criticism, dismissal, or silence.
If that pattern feels familiar, you’re not alone. For many people, especially those with histories of emotional neglect or developmental trauma, explaining becomes a survival strategy, an unconscious attempt to win safety and approval.
Childhood messages that stay with us
Growing up, you may have heard things like:
“What were you thinking?”
“Why are you being so sensitive?”
“Explain yourself right now.”
These moments weren’t just about rules or discipline. They were about identity and safety. If you were often questioned, judged, or misunderstood, you may have learned to reflexively defend your choices in order to be seen or to avoid disconnection.
When love was conditional, based on behavior, mood, or performance, you likely adapted by becoming hyperaware of others’ reactions. You may have learned to “perform” the version of yourself that would win acceptance. Over time, this creates a split between your inner truth and the version of you that feels “safe” to present.
Explaining as a form of control
It can be hard to admit, but explaining and defending, though they seem like honest attempts to communicate, are often rooted in an unconscious desire to control how we are perceived. If I can just explain myself well enough, they’ll stop judging me. If they could just understand where I’m coming from, they’ll stop being angry.
But here’s the hard truth: explanations don’t change judgment. They don’t transform closed hearts. They often make the other person feel pushed, cornered, or blamed, even if that wasn’t your intention.
And when you sense that resistance, what do you do? Probably try harder. Explain more. So the cycle continues.
Breaking the cycle: From control to connection
Healing this pattern starts with the courageous decision to stop trying to be understood in the moment of conflict and start trying to understand yourself.
Instead of reacting from that place of fear or urgency, try this:
Pause the conversation: “I don’t think we’re getting anywhere right now. Let’s revisit this when we’re both calm.”
Name what’s happening: “I’m noticing that I feel judged, and I don’t want to keep going like this.”
Stay kind, not cold: Keep your heart open, even as you set a boundary.
This is not giving up, it’s letting go of the fight to be seen in that moment so that a real connection can happen later.
What happens when you drop the rope
When you stop defending, something interesting happens: the power struggle dissolves. There’s nothing for the other person to push against. You’ve dropped your side of the rope.
This softens the dynamic. It creates space for curiosity, accountability, and emotional repair. Sometimes the other person mirrors your openness. Sometimes they don’t. But either way, you’ve stepped out of the control cycle and back into your Self.
Defensiveness, procrastination & emotional neglect
This pattern of explaining isn’t just interpersonal. It can also show up internally, in how you relate to yourself.
Have you ever noticed how procrastination comes with a barrage of inner explanations?
“I’ll do it later.”
“I’m too tired.”
“What if it’s not good enough?”
These aren’t just excuses. They’re often protective defenses built around buried pain, shame, fear, or the ache of never having been emotionally supported. In next month’s piece, we’ll explore how procrastination can be a trauma response, and what it looks like to meet it with compassion instead of pressure.
For now, ask yourself
When I explain myself, what am I really trying to get?
What part of me learned that love is earned through performance or perfection?
What would it feel like to pause the performance, and just be?
Your healing doesn’t begin with others understanding you. It begins when you stop abandoning yourself to be understood.
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Anna Kuyumcuoglu, Licensed Psychotherapist
Anna Kuyumcuoglu is a trauma-informed licensed psychotherapist specializing in body-based somatic psychotherapy. With a deep understanding of attachment and nervous system regulation, she helps individuals move beyond adaptive survival strategies toward secure, embodied connection. Committed to creating a safe and attuned therapeutic space, Anna supports clients in strengthening their capacity for co-regulation, self-trust, and relational intimacy. Grounded in a compassionate, integrative approach, she empowers individuals to reclaim their resilience and experience more authentic, fulfilling relationships—with both themselves and others.
