The Attachment Trauma Trilogy Part I & 2
- Brainz Magazine
- Dec 5
- 4 min read
Updated: 6 days ago
Written by Anna Kuyumcuoglu, Licensed Psychotherapist
Anna Kuyumcuoglu is well-known for her somatic psychotherapies. She is the founder and CEO of Wall Street Therapy, a private practice in the heart of New York's financial district.
Healing attachment trauma begins with a quiet but life-altering moment, the moment you stop pretending that unsafe or one-sided relationships are enough. As the mask drops, grief, guilt, fear, and profound relief rise to the surface, revealing the patterns your body learned long before you had language for them. This article explores the first stages of attachment trauma resolution and what truly unfolds when you stop performing closeness and start choosing authenticity, safety, and self-respect.
Part I: The stages of attachment trauma resolution
There comes a moment in healing when you realize you can no longer pretend. You stop forcing the closeness that was never safe, never mutual, never nurturing.
And when you stop faking it, the truth comes up fast and raw:
You feel the grief of what you never received.
You feel the discomfort of stepping out of old roles.
You feel guilt for choosing yourself.
You feel fear that they’ll be hurt, or that you’ll be punished.
You feel relief, because your body finally stops lying.
This is not rejection.
This is attachment trauma resolution, the moment when your nervous system stops collapsing into old patterns and begins choosing authenticity over survival.
For many adults in NYC who grew up with emotional neglect, criticism, or parentification, the body learned to stay connected by pretending:
Smiling through discomfort
Minimizing pain
Staying small
Holding the peace
Performing “good child” roles
Hiding the truth to avoid conflict
When you stop faking closeness, your system is actually saying: “I’m ready for relationships that don’t require self-abandonment.”
In somatic therapy and Internal Family Systems (IFS), we help the nervous system unlearn those survival strategies and create a new internal template for connection, one built on safety, truth, and self-respect.
This is how attachment trauma begins to resolve, your body stops bracing, your protectors soften, and the parts of you that were unseen finally come forward.
If you’re in this place, you are not “breaking the family”, you’re breaking a generational pattern.
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Part II: The hidden burden — Parentification, emotional neglect & the body’s response
Why the body breaks down when you stop carrying what was never yours, and how healing begins when you recognize the invisible labor of your childhood.
Many adults live with exhaustion, hyper-independence, high-functioning anxiety, chronic shame, or difficulty trusting closeness without realizing these patterns began in childhood, not through overt trauma, but through parentification and emotional neglect.
These are the silent wounds:
You became the emotional adult in a home where the real adults were overwhelmed, absent, unpredictable, or emotionally unavailable.
The child in you learned to:
anticipate needs
maintain the peace
soothe dysregulated caregivers
suppress your own needs
grow up too quickly
This sets the stage for attachment trauma, and later, the profound unraveling that happens when you finally stop playing those roles.
This article explores what happens next, the layers underneath the unmasking process.
1. The invisible contract: Becoming “the strong one” too early
Parentified children never get to be children. Your nervous system learned to stay hypervigilant, monitoring moods, silencing your needs, and stabilizing the environment.
This survival role often becomes your identity:
“I can handle everything.”
“I don’t need help.”
“My feelings don’t matter.”
“Others come first.”
These are not beliefs, they are physiological adaptations.
2. Emotional neglect: The trauma with no story
Unlike overt abuse, emotional neglect leaves no narrative, only patterns:
numbness
self-doubt
low self-worth
chronic loneliness
confusion around closeness
collapsing or shutting down in relationships
The wound is not what happened. It’s what never happened, attunement, comfort, co-regulation, and emotional presence.
This is why adults often report:
“I don’t know why I feel this empty.”
“I had a good childhood, so why am I struggling?”
“My body reacts, but I can’t find a memory.”
The body remembers the absence.
3. When you stop carrying the load: The system starts to shake
When you finally let go of the role you played, the responsible one, the emotional caretaker, the peacemaker, the nervous system destabilizes.
You might feel:
guilt
grief
disorientation
irritability
fatigue
disgust
fear of backlash
the urge to disappear or isolate
This is not regression. This is the body undoing decades of emotional labor.
4. Meeting the protector system: The parts that kept you alive
In Internal Family Systems (IFS), these are the protectors that formed around emotional neglect:
The Numb One
The Strong One
The Invisible One
The Pleaser
The Hyper-Responsible One
The Lone Wolf
The Detached or Shut-Down One
The Competent, Overachieving One
These protectors are not problems, they are solutions. They were the best attempt of a child to stabilize a system that lacked stability. Healing begins when we befriend them, not bypass them.
5. Why this is attachment trauma: The missing blueprint
Children need attuned caregivers to form secure attachment. When that is absent, the nervous system develops a survival attachment connection based on performance, compliance, or hyper-independence.
In adulthood, this creates:
difficulty trusting
fear of dependency
fear of engulfment
chronic shame
avoidance or anxious pursuit
inability to rest in relationships
self-abandonment as a default
This is not a personality flaw. It is the imprint of emotional absence.
Conclusion
Parentification and emotional neglect shape the nervous system in profound, lifelong ways. But healing is absolutely possible.
The next article in this series explores what happens after the unmasking the phase where individuals begin to reclaim their internal space and finally feel the first sensations of liberation.
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Anna Kuyumcuoglu, Licensed Psychotherapist
Anna Kuyumcuoglu is a trauma-informed licensed psychotherapist specializing in body-based somatic psychotherapy. With a deep understanding of attachment and nervous system regulation, she helps individuals move beyond adaptive survival strategies toward secure, embodied connection. Committed to creating a safe and attuned therapeutic space, Anna supports clients in strengthening their capacity for co-regulation, self-trust, and relational intimacy. Grounded in a compassionate, integrative approach, she empowers individuals to reclaim their resilience and experience more authentic, fulfilling relationships with both themselves and others.
