Finding Peace in the Zero Point Between Grief and Longing
Veronica Kim connects the dots within the vast field of reality, guiding individuals to a powerful 40,000-foot macro view of their life’s purpose while offering intimate micro perspectives that reveal the intricate essence of who they truly are.
I lay in bed after a Monroe meditation, not expecting much. It had been a while. I asked the field, show me what I most need to see about these recent months, the grief, the yearning, the quiet ache.
What came through was surprisingly mathematical. There is polarity in everything right now. Wanting to reach out, not wanting to reach out. Missing him, a soul bond that defies easy explanation, not wanting to miss him.
I watched the back and forth like a cosmic tug of war. Then the question. If wanting is +, and not wanting is -, what is the outcome? Zero. It all cancels out.
Have you heard of the Zero Point Energy Field? Of course. Then go there, it said. In that field, there is no reason to do or not do. There is only being. Stand in the center. Observe. No analysis. No judgment. Just presence.
The field was showing me something I already knew but hadn't yet let myself feel. Since my sister's sudden departure in January, grief has arrived in waves. Some days it feels brand new. Other days it drags up old childhood wounds I thought I had already healed.
I was born the oldest of two girls. My father, I believe, wanted a boy. He gave me a neutral name, something I actually love. But from my earliest memories, I carried his disappointment. I was the reserved one, the thinker, the black sheep drawn to supernatural things no one around me could understand. My sister carried a bright, shining energy that made people smile. I often felt hidden behind her light.
Every evening, my father, a teacher, would test me rigorously. Wrong answers brought hits and words like "stupid." As I grew older, the criticism became a daily ritual of yelling, judgment, and deeply hurtful words. Coming home felt like walking into a jail. No matter what I achieved, it was never enough.
I still remember his face on the day I entered university for fashion design, angry, disappointed, disgusted. Yet the same man supported me when I wanted to become a flight attendant. The contradictions were confusing even then.
My sister later stood up for me. She wrote our parents a long letter about the abuse she witnessed. She never fully forgave them. Now she is gone, the one who held so many of those childhood memories with me. Here I am, integrating the wounds, while the person who caused much of the original pain remains.
Those same patterns have resurfaced strongly. The old armor I built to survive, swinging between extreme openness and cold protection, is showing itself again.
The yearning for the soul connection that walked into my life eight years ago has been one of the loudest polarities. He mirrors me so precisely that being with him feels like quantum entanglement in human form. Yet, the universe has been sending me the gentlest reminders that I am supported.
The other day while hiking, a group of deer appeared on the path, followed by a hawk flying directly in front of us. Then a monarch butterfly landed right beside me, so close it seemed to invite touch. Yesterday, while trimming lavender in the front yard, a neighborhood cat came and sat at eye level, watching me. It let me touch its paw and lingered, as if carrying a message. These animals, the deer, the hawk, the butterfly, the cat, have been showing up one after another, as if the natural world itself was saying something I couldn't yet put into words.
In the Zero Point Energy Field, the still point where energy doesn't stop, it simply becomes quiet enough to listen, there is no need to exert force, no need to chase or resist. It is the ground before polarity arises. The more I step into that field, the more I can observe the grief, the resurfacing childhood pain, the entangled yearning, and even these animal visitors without being controlled by any of it. I can feel it all and simply let it be.
This is not bypass. This is the most honest medicine I have ever received. Because the same Zero Point that helps me hold the grief of losing my sister, the old wounds from my father, and the ache of this deep soul bond is the same field the world is slowly awakening into.
I don't need to wait for the outer disclosures, the scientific ones, the political ones, the financial ones, the cosmic ones. I get to practice it now, in my own heart, with my own wounds, with my own longing.
Some days the wave is stronger. Some days quieter. But I keep returning to the center, observing, breathing, choosing myself. Zero Point is not the absence of feeling.
It is the end of being controlled by feeling. In that stillness, something tender and true is being reborn. The ripple continues.
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Veronica Kim, Certified QHHT® Level 2 Practitioner and Harmonic Egg® Guardian
Veronica is a QHHT® Level 2 Practitioner and Harmonic Egg® Guardian who guides individuals toward profound self-discovery and healing through Quantum Healing Hypnosis and sacred sound-light energy sessions. Her journey spans continents, from a childhood fascination with the supernatural in Korea to immigrating to America, where serendipitous paths led from teaching English to thriving in Silicon Valley's innovative tech world, reigniting early scientific dreams as tools for growth and stability. Through deep self-observation, she embraced her true purpose, helping others release blocks, access Higher Wisdom, and step into mastery of their intricate soul stories.
