Written by: Deborah Garratt, Executive Contributor
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Been Here Before
I have always known that I have been here before and that this isn’t my first rodeo. It was an inner knowing and the core feeling that I am here once again to learn. It is often said that growth on Earth is only achieved through pain or suffering. I have always felt different even as a child and never have quite fit in. But I have always understood that I am here to learn, expand and help others. It is the methodology that I have a problem with.
I was newly married and probably the happiest stage of my life when I was called to visit my past lives to learn how they were affecting me in this life. I am not sure why this was happening at such a happy time in my life, but I knew it held answers about my childhood and shed light on who I really am. Maybe with all the happiness I was experiencing, it didn’t fulfill me like I thought it would. Obviously, I still needed some clarity and answers that would hopefully bring about some healing.
The Souls That Bind
The way hypnosis works are that the subconscious mind will show you past lives that now impact this life. It recalls lives that had some of your family or loved ones that you are within this life. I saw my family members in different roles in many lives. I was able to witness the hurt or wrongdoing that we did to each other, which gave me great insight into our relationship in this life. If you believe in karma, then past life regression can help you understand your karmic ties or debt with others.
My introduction to past life regression hypnosis was in a group setting at a local junior college. I attended with a girlfriend, and there were approximately thirty other students. The instructor explained that we come back together in many lifetimes to clear up karma and fulfill soul contracts with each other for spiritual growth. He believed that we all have free will, but there are facets of our lives and relationships that are predestined. I also believe that before we are born, we choose the lessons and assigned soul family members to different roles to help facilitate them.
We Choose Our Parents?
My first past life regression session had a profound effect on me and my belief system. The first night of class, I sat with my friend until the instructor told us to separate so as not to distract each other, so I moved across the room. He gave an interesting lecture about, believe it or not; we pick our parents. Just like other relationships, their role is to help us grow. He told us that he would be hypnotizing all of us at once. The first stage was guiding us to before we were born and choosing our parents for this life. He said that next, he would take us to three months in utero and then six months in utero. He did not want to take us through the birth process because it is a very traumatic experience for some. He finished by saying that he would wake us up after that, and then we can discuss what we experienced.
I am one of those people that can be easily hypnotized, and my friend was not. She was not able to go under that first night or any other night for that matter. Years later, she told me that her father had sexually abused her for years. That is why she couldn’t relax for fear of memories or images coming to the surface. Meanwhile, across the room, I was experiencing pure terror and begging to please not come back to Earth. I was so desperate and scared that I was physically whimpering and pleading by shaking my head back and forth no. My friend was watching this and was so concerned that she got the instructor's attention, and he came and stood by me.
Gasping for Air and Answers
My reaction to incarnating again did not surprise me. Since I was a little girl, I have not felt as though I belong here. I always had a feeling that this is where we learn and that hell is on Earth. I wasn’t a morbid child, but I saw life differently and still do. When I saw myself choosing my parents, I was excited to be with my mom again since we’ve been in many lifetimes together, but I was terrified of my Father. I kept saying, “oh God, I know he’s going to hurt me,” and eventually, he did.
The second phase of the session at three months in utero was amazing. I felt myself in the fetal position floating in warm fluid. I had plenty of room, and I could hear my mother’s gastric noises and heartbeat. I felt buoyant and safe. Things changed drastically when he advanced us to six months in utero. Suddenly I couldn’t breathe. I had to gasp for air physically because I couldn’t get enough air. There is a misconception that you are unaware of your surroundings or behavior when under hypnosis, but that is simply not true. I was completely aware that I was in a classroom with thirty people and making a fool of myself. At one point, because of this, I tried to stop gasping, but that only made it worse. I made a huge gasp to make up for it, which got the instructor's attention. Once again, he stood by me and shortly after woke us all up.
My friend was staring at me in disbelief, and the instructor asked me if I was ok. I was embarrassed and said that I was fine, but the truth was I was not far from it. When we got to the car, we discussed what happened, and I was confused, certain that something happened to my mother or me at six months in utero. When I got home, I called my mother immediately. I said, “what in the hell happened when you were six months pregnant with me?” At first, she said nothing, so I told her what happened during class. She then said, “I never told you, but I was in denial that I was pregnant until about six months into the pregnancy because it was an accident, and your father was in Viet Nam, and I wanted to kill myself”. And I answered, “well, you damn near killed me, too”.
This whole experience gave me incredible insight and clarity on my unique perception of life on earth and my relationship with my parents. My Father came back from View Nam, a violent alcoholic who was very verbally abusive. He did, in fact, hurt me, and it’s stayed with me my entire life.
Discovering the Greater Plan
Experiencing past lives gives us a feeling of order and purpose for what happens to us. That there is a greater plan and not everything is just up to chance. Maybe some things that happen are fated, and people do come into our lives for a reason. And that what happens here can be fixed or healed in another life. We are all human, and with that comes the ability to hurt or judge one another. Remember, these painful experiences are transformed into growth, wisdom, strength, and eventually expansion at a soul level. That is the reason we are all here, and to ascend, we must come here again and again. I highly recommend that if you want a better understanding of yourself and your life purpose, try past life regression. It offers healing and insight into how the universe works and the part you and your loved ones play in it.
Deborah Garratt, Executive Contributor Brainz Magazine Deborah Garratt is an inspirational leader for women over forty. Her personal story is one of insurmountable loss, followed by redemption and hope. She had to completely reinvent herself in her fifties and has dedicated her life to helping other women do the same. She empowers "women in full bloom" to own their personal journey and embrace this amazing stage in life. Deborah uses intuitive coaching and spiritual arts to elevate her clients and all women in full bloom. She is a published blogger, executive contributor, public speaker, and a powerful truth-teller for women.
